Another lesson learned

Being a mom is the most amazing, wonderful thing in the world. I couldn't sleep tonight, so I thought I'd update my blog and share some thoughts about this wonderful chapter in my life. I think my whole life I've thought about when I'm a parent, I'm going to be the teacher. I'm going to teach my kids right from wrong, I'll teach them all about the Gospel, sports, academics, and life in general. This is a very important part of being a parent, but one aspect of it that I never thought about was being taught by my kids. After all, they come into this world with no knowledge of anything, how in the world can they teach us??? Let me just say that I've been downright humbled on many levels the past ten months....

In the scriptures, Christ teaches us to become as little children. I always knew what that meant, but never really understood it. Until now. One of my favorite things to do while I'm at home all day with Jaxon, is to watch him. I watch him use his imagination and play with his toys. I watch him grow and develop physically and mentally. I am absolutely mesmerized by him. He is so fascinating. One thing that we've struggled with lately, is that he will yell and scream if he wants something. We have no idea how to make him stop. Sometimes, we kinda get after him a little bit. I think about my childhood and the many times I was in trouble. (I know, I know, you all thought I was perfect...) Sometimes it made me sad for a long time. What I've learned from Jaxon, and what I think the Lord was trying to teach us, is that becoming like a child is more than being innocent and humble. It's being loving and forgiving through learning and through hard times. Almost immediately after he gets in trouble, he'll lean in and give me or daddy a kiss, or a big smile, or even a hug. He doesn't dwell on the past, he is so happy and forgiving. It is extremely humbling to me that if Jaxon can be that much like Christ, why can't I? And that's exactly how Christ lived his life. Even on the cross, he prayed to the Father for the forgiveness of the men who inflicted so much torment and pain on him.

One thing I learned today in particular, was not to look on the situation with a closed mind. I need to be more understanding, and look at the bigger picture. Today, Jax had a rough day. He was fussy most of the day and yelled more than usual. It wasn't until tonight that we took his temperature only to find that he had a fever. That would explain the fussiness! Yes, I think my child is extraordinary. I think he is the cutest little boy on the planet. But today, I gained a lot of respect for this tiny little person.

Today, it wasn't me, the mighty parent who was the teacher. No, the real teacher today was my Little Jaxon.